There she waits, silent in her self imposed darkness, for Him to come and claim her.....
How He stirs me, this man
He who holds me in His hands, His heart
In His presence, i evolve,
more fully myself than when alone.
Free to confess and be that secret girl
she who yearns to kneel, to serve, to please
to offer up in sacrifice to Him all that she is,
laid upon the altar of her devotion and love.
March 13,2001
Master called me this morning for His hotel room. My heart melted to
hear his voice. I loved hearing Him. We talked a lon while. He is so wonderful.
Never in my life have i been this happy. He has taught me so much. I still
have so much to learn though. He gave the impression there maybe more changes.
I assume he means he will start insisting his expectations be met from
us. I know i have slacked off. Kind of got too comfortable doing my own
thing. He said he did not want me to feel caged or to ever fear Him, How
could i explain to him that every slave has a certain amount of trepidation
when it comes to her Master. He literally at times could hold her between
life and death. If he were to leave my life, my whole world would
come trumbeling down. I am never afraid he will abuse me, but i feel there
will always be a certain amount of fear. Fear of doing something
to warrant punishment I am never afaid that he will hurt me though.
i exist for Your pleasure, there-in will i
find pleasure and fulfillment...
